Quitter

Ok, so. . .

Lately, I guess I can consider myself ashamed and a failure. I always told myself that I would never quit. Keep pushin, whateva it was. Relationships, people, school, work, whateva just life in general.

So far, I've pretty much failed in all of that. Not gonna play the blame game or nothin, just gonna man up and take responsibility for my own actions. I've pretty much lost each and every friend I had, except a few of them, some over petty stuff, some just out and out stopped talking, and I don't care who started it or who's fault it was but I'm sorry either way, because now I basicaly have no one to go to for comfort or that would take the time out to even care.

I can pretty much say that I have the worst luck known to man finding a girl to be with. Trust issues, scared of being hurt, lack of communication, being cheated on and now has a kid on the way (NOT me, but it happened) you name it, it was the problem, and eventually all forms of contact would be lost. And for that, I'm sorry. Kinda hurts to realize that things could never be. Hurts worse when you never even get the opportunity to try. Time changes people, eventually people stop even givin a shit. Believe me I've seen it. I always try not to be that person. Sometimes trying isn't enough.

My school advisors are idiots. I get three different phone calls from three different people telling me to do three different things. Its like they don't keep tabs on each other. Makes you wanna quit school. But I haven't. *Nuff said.

Oh well, I guess that's the way of the world.
*Signin' Off*
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Asshole

Ok, So. . .

If you know me, one time or another you've probably called me an asshole. So yes, I've come to realize that I am an asshole. Whew, glad I got that off my chest. I mean I honestly don't know why though.

Am I an asshole because when you ask my opinion I don't lie to you?
Am I an asshole because I don't kiss your ass and compliment you every ten seconds?
Am I an asshole because me, a single man, keep my options open and talk to other people?
Am I an asshole because I wouldn't hold your hand in public?
Am I an asshole because I actually show that I care?
Am I an asshole because I also could give two shits?
Am I an asshole because you think I'm doing you wrong, when in reality I'm not?

But hey maybe I'm just an asshole to be an asshole. . . Who knows? I sure don't.

I guess that's just the way of the world I guess

*Signin' Off*
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